Monday, July 21, 2008

.: adikku bukan adikku?? :.

mak,bapak n danny

hm...when you guys see me with my family, you wouldn't have guess that there is a story behind it.. a truly and deeply sad story... just a story to share... Aidilfitri 2007 Irfan Daniel Hanif..my last little brother.he was just 4, by the end of December... while everyone enjoying the eid... danny : (sambil merengek)....bapak jomla pegi kubur mama so, bapak took him to tampin and my brother mother and myself followed him...

@ the kubur
danny: assalamualaikum mama....!!(not very fluent,hehe)


bapak: dany ikut daddy bace doa untuk mama, ok?

danny:(tadah tangan,but sambil lompat2..hehe)


bapak:(tuangkan air...) danny come here..kite tuang air untk mama k..

dany: daddy, mama dah tido

bapak: ye syang.. (he could not hold his tears..and kissed danny on his forehead
)

i was in the car could not hold my tears...danny was so innocent..so i went out the car and huggged him..in my heart, i wanted him to understand that i will be there to love him.. that day was rather quiet and full of emotions..danny was so happy that day, didn't understand that his 'mama' will be sleeping for eternity..
so before we went home, danny said "assalamualaikum mama" and waved as if his mother could waved back...
sape danny ni sebenarnye...hm..danny is my brother but comes from a different mother. his mother died (tak tahu sbb ape..maybe dah sampai ajal) in 2006.so, kitorgla yang jage dia..at first, dia mmg tak nak lansung kat kitorg.dia asyik nak berkepit ngn bibik je. 3 tahun je dia dapat rase kasih sayang daripada mama dia.itupun mama dia busy je, bibik yang jage dia..bibik ni pulak keja lepak je..geram btol! mase dia dtg kat rumah kitorg( yang kat maahad tula), dia lansung tak nak wat keja sbb dia kate bkn mak yang gaji dia tapi 'mama'.danny tido, dia tido.dany tgk tv dia join.hm..tataula nak kate ape...but that is a different but related story.. mak, and myself never meet mama when she was still alive..hm..dont know what was the real reason was...terkilan la jugak ...
danny sekarang panggil mak kitorg mak jugak..kitorg dah anggap dia mcm adik sendiri..tapi maybe adik yang bongsu (sepatutnye, aida yang dajah 5 taun ni) macam jeles la ngn danny ni.biaselatu, danny dah amik takhta dia kan.. but the person i admired most in dealing with this situation is my mother. she is the one who keep loving him untill now, dany feels like mak was his mother...but mama was never forgotten cuz he keeping calling her in his dreams somtimes, and maybe when he was crying for some reasons.. losing a mother's love..how does that feels?? i'm thankful that i still has a mother.. alhamdulilllah...i want to cherish her until my last breath...
but sometimes, pepahamla, bebudak ske menangis, mengade2..kadang tak tahan dgn peragai budak kecik.kena anta dia pegi tadika, tak nak pegila, menangis pagi2 la,tak nak mandi, buang baju...dah lali dgn benda camtu..take that as a practice for my future life,hehe...mmg kena byak bersabar nak membesarkan an orphanage..hm..i will try to deal with it, cuz maybe dia jadi mcm tu sbb rase there is something missing from him...

al-fatihah to arwah mama... may Allah bless her..and i will try to mould danny to be a son who is soleh and always pray for her mama...kakak syg danny...huwaaa...sedih plak

kakak cyg danny...pergh..bleh plak posing dak ni...


one day,when i want to send danny to his tadika at bangi, he stared at some of his friends that were accompanied with their mother and some with both of their parents..so he saw that his friends were kissed and waved by his or her mother before entering the gate..so, hehe.before entering the tadika..he said to me,while crying dari rumah sebab tak nak pergi tadika "kakak iza (panggilan yang direka oleh danny, hehe) syg danny (meaning kiss) okey..syg danny kat tadika" so everytime i sent him to tadika, i have to kiss him..rase mcm jadi mak la pulak..hehe..klaka pulak...

sleeping danny....

this is a true story..i'm not really good in words so mcm tak pandai sgt nak express what i really feels..so..adikku bkn adikku means that danny is my brother, real one but does not come from the same mother..huhu...





1 comment:

Anonymous said...

sedey ar pulak huhu .....